EzzaJay's

i love you more than you could possibly imagine.

2011-03-27T04:03:00.002+08:00

hey sayang, i guess you havent been checking your blog for a super duper long time now. SO i guess ill revive it. Since, your busy tumblring away, im actually have been thinking of what to write down here, but i guess my brain cant work at this hour. But i wont waste this chance to type down 10 reasons why i love you.
1) You make me feel like im the only boy in this world
2) you fill me with love that my soul has been hungry for.
3) you catch me everytime i know im about to fall.
4) you make me feel that ever game i played, i played those games to the best of my ability.
5) you tell me everything that i should know, and you never kept a word from me.
6) you love my family members just the way i love them
7) you make me laugh to those quick short jokes of yours
8) you make me smile everytime you smile at me
9) you trust me no matter what it is.
10) finally you make me, me.

Baby, dont worry this are not the only reasons why i love you. THERES SOO MUCH MORE. You just wont believe what you have done to make me love you soo much sayang.

You are my princess (:

And remember you are the most beautiful girl in the whole world <3

From, Iqbal

Going away does'nt mean im leaving (:

2010-08-21T06:38:00.001+08:00

Hello love!

I'm sure you weren't expecting this even though my flight is in a few hours hehe, well i just couldnt leave just like that, it wouldnt be fair for you. So i dont care even without the time in the world, ill squeeze in something( which is this blog post) to keep you to accompanied for the rest of the 8 days. Well babylove, as i go, i wish that you do not cry for me because it will be hard and very painful. I wish you to be strong and let me leave with an open mind as i will be fine sayang. I promise you that i will be back safely in your arms my dear. I know its hard, but everything happens for a reason and this time, God want us to be stronger now. To be stronger for each other and i know deep in that puny little body frame of yours you can be stronger. And i can proudly say that wihtout any regrets.

I know you will be an angel as im gone,because i know you know how to lead your life. Your old enough to think about what going on around you. To know whats right and whats wrong and being together for more than a year. We know the things that is acceptable and unacceptable. (: So love, please remember to go home early and not lepak after rugby kay? try to take the cab home! Go out and have fun with your friends kay? Enjoy yourself a little dont worry about me ill be perfectly fine because i know you know that i know that you know that i will always find my way back home(:

Eventhough im flying off soon, im not there physically but im there in your heart all the time, i promise you that i will think of you everytime, i will play every game not only for my country but for my love (: You are my only exception love (: So smile and not cry love, Im here kay? im always here princess(:

I love you Nurul Ezza Binte Jasni, i love you forever till eternity sayang. please take care of yourself, dont worry kay (: Everything little thing is gonna be alright, Dont worry, Be happy (:

p/s please listen to journey's open arms, i will be listening to it (:

p/s dont be naughty think of me !

Love,

Iqbal <3

2010-08-20T07:16:00.004+08:00

Good Morning cuppy cake!

While youre sleeping soundly like a newborn baby right now,I am awake and just couldnt sleep at all.I cant wait to spend the whole day with you...before you leave Singapore.): As heavy-hearted as you may feel,just know youre doing it for Singapore and I am always supporting you at the back.(:

This also means,youre leaving me behind for the first time.You know how much of a weakling I am,that is why i decided not to send you off.The moment you enter the gates,I am sure you would tear up and I could just crumble,and fall like a lunatic.No one can carry me up,because I only need your loving hands,dear.): 8 days is like a freaking year to the both of us because..we've never left each other's side at all.However,looking on a bright side,maybe He wants me and you to be a stronger individual.We'll go through this successfully,as we promised.

Speaking of promises,I remembered you told me not to go Baybeats and Wavehouse.Hehe,and i promised I would be an angel like always. <: I will wait patiently (ok no,please come back faster!!) for your arrival and do expect me waiting for you at the airport.Im going to give you the tightest hug and biggest kiss that have been waiting to be planted on your lovely cheeks.I promise to not skip any of the fasting month days because as naughty and hard-headed I am,youre the only one who can be strict and tell me to stay strong and not break fast at any point of time when I couldnt take it.(eg: rugby trainings) :p Oh and I promise I wont break my fast easily during trainings.I promise I would stick with my girls all the time and not wander alone because you wouldnt like it.I promise not to 'lepak' out late after rugby because you dont like it too.(well,maybe approximately make my way home ard 10pm).But,I cannot promise you I would be cabbing home from CG ): because I cant waste lots of money. I hope you understand,love. (:

On the other hand,you have a list to promise me too,mister! <: Promise me you wont go clubs with the boys (which I know you wouldnt or not I would tell mummy).Promise me you would always be safe.Promise me you can take care of yourself well because I wouldnt be there to wipe your face for you,comb your hair and..basically just make you look neat.Haha! Promise me you would take good responsibilty of your belongings.Promise me you would call me at a specific time.Promise me you would not break your fast too.Promise me,I would always be in your heart because you would be always in my heart. <:

Lastly,please finance your money well and dont spend too much,alright? You dont have to buy me anything from Bangkok,because all I want is you to be back safely in my arms.Thats all I am asking for.Please have a safe journey to and fro,and dont worry a thing about me.I will be fine (:

Dear Allah,please protect him while he's away,for youre the Almighty one.Please watch him over for me? (':

p/s sneak me in your luggage please!!

2010-07-31T21:36:00.004+08:00

Dear Iqbal,

We have turned 1 year 1 month yesterday! Congratulations to us,love! After all these time,I couldnt believe we have gone this far.You and me,in this wonderful world.I just want to tell you how much you mean to me.How much you can just make me lie down and bleed to death if you walk out of my life.How much you can make me happy even when Im at my lowest.You mean everything to me,love.

After all these time,I came to realise my purpose of living in this world.Its for you.You once said,"I am nothing with you.I cant live without you.I need you,Ezza." And instantly I know,Im the one youve been looking for.Well you know what? I am nothing without you.I can live without you.I need you too,Iqbal.You have been the highlight and wonders in my life.You thought me values of life,how to be strong and stay strong and how to lose my ego.

I am sorry if ive not been behaving,or hurting you deep inside.Im sorry if i ever broke our little promises.But thats just me.I keep forgetting,and I do break promises.But its you who taught me how valueable is a promise.And thats why,no matter how many promises I broke,i will never ever break our 1 ultimate promise.That is,Never leave each other.You can trust me on this my dear.I will be the stupidest girl on earth if i leave someone so amazing like you.

Do you know why youre amazing? Because you shower me with so much love.You taught me the meaning of love.You showed me love.You proved your love.And that is why,Ive stick with you through the past year.I would lose everything if i lose you.

All i want is,to grow old with you.To wake up and seeing your perfect face first thing in the morning.To get hugs from the back when im cooking.To have your loving tender hands to treat me when im sick.To have your touch when im alone.To have your hands hugging me when i sleep.To have you when i eat.To have your company when im shopping.To have your voice whispering in my ear.To have you,everyday.

And have you imagined love? When we grow old,as days pass by for us,we'll see our kids grow all beautifully.Seeing wrinkles forming on our faces.And when we wake up each morning,maybe i could spot a new wrinkle on yours while you spot on mine,and we'll laugh it off together.Maybe you could get me to spot a few white strands of hair on yours,while you do to mine. (:

See how much we can do as we grow? And when we are too old and wrinkled,I wouldnt want us to part at all.I will be sticking by you all the time because it is during our most risky period of all.Its the time one of us might die to old age.Even when i cant afford to,i wish i could snuggle right beside you.If my legs cant afford to hug your legs when sleeping,I wouldnt mind.So long my hands are strong enough.Just so you know,i wish i would die first because i cannot imagine my life without you after that.I may be old and too weak to accept the fact my dear.But on the other hand,that might be selfish of me,isnt it? If you die first,at least you could die in my arms and i would be happy knowing youre so peaceful after that.But maybe..i would just leave it to God himself.Im sure he had it all planned out for us.

So,can you see it dear? My life wouldnt be that interesting unless theres you in it.And i chose you specifically because youre just a special boy.Just so unique and awesome and thats why i love you.Forever and always will.

Love,EzzaJay.

You and Me; we'll conquer the world

2010-07-18T03:22:00.006+08:00

What do i see when i look at you sayang, is what i see in heaven.

You possess the beauty and the sincerity of angel that only exists nowhere else except heaven.

The kind of angel that makes you wish you were killed/murdered and enter heaven just to see you.

Looking at you seems so expensive, where your contents are rare and just too 'out of this world'

The kind of expensive little possession with so many curves.

Looking at you, reminds me of the things i should do.

Like, making sure that i always bring a second jacket because she'll will be cold.

Always take the cab in the morning no matter what cause her backbone would hurt.

Make sure i get rid of those mentos that she doesn't like in the little bottle berry mentos.

Get her a balloon whenever i can because she be happy like a little girl: hopping around like a bunny

Make sure her food doesn't have any vegetables at all or she'll lose her appetite

Make sure i buy her sticker *3D version* so she'll be happy pasting it anywhere she can reach

Watch videos of animals and laugh and cry with her, because she wants me to love animals as much as she does.

To pick up the phone as soon as possible all the time because she misses me.

Make sure she's home safely.

Pick the nicest clothes for her because she only deserves the best

Hold her hand tight and never let go because shes too precious.

Carry her bag once her backbone is starting to ache.

Sing to her when she wants to sleep.

Play with her hair because she likes it.

Massage her around because she needs it.

Be there with her all the time because it'll shows her what love is.

I love you very much Nurul Ezza. We've gone through year and we have always been going on strong

Nothing can stop us nothing at all.

We are meant to be.

Fate

Destiny

Love

Its all meant to be

baby.

You and Me

No one else

Forever together as promised.

We'll conquer the world with our love.

Thank you for coming into my life, angel (:

I love you till the end of all time.

Iqbal and Ezza forever together

2010-07-17T14:51:00.011+08:00

I swear to god we both have no time to update this blog of ours.But since i have the time,why not? :P

If youre wondering how are we,we are both doing good.Busy with school,rugby,family and friends.But of course we do spend every single minute we have with each other.Last 15 days,we turned a year older! Happy 1st anniversary to us,dearest <: Though we didnt celebrate like how we planned due to unforseen circumstances,but we poured each other with so much love,that i felt that there no need for a fancy dinner or a bouquet of flowers or a ring.Its just him that can make me the happiest girl alive.I love you,Iqbal. <3<3<3<3

2010-06-26T17:42:00.003+08:00

Out of randomness,we decided to create formspring to see what other people might wanna know and ask us.So there you go,ask us one today! (:

And before i forget,to the man of my life,

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY MUHAMMAD IQBAL BIN ABDUL RAHIM

You dont know whats in store for you.Im glad you received lots of wishes in facebook.(hehehe you know i know) Also,since its your birthday,I allow you to choose whatever you want to do.Since you wanted to go for the rugby thingy,you know im supporting you from the back.Play well,and make me proud like you always do.Take note of all the things you told me yesterday night about changing yourself to be a better man.Good luck in everything you do,have a bright future ahead and i know you will succeed.

From your love,EzzaJay

2010-06-22T12:38:00.000+08:00

8 MORE DAYS!
ARE YOU EXCITED?!
WE ARE SURE EXCITED!!

2010-05-31T21:57:00.006+08:00

Good day everyone!

Today,i decided to update this lonely blog of mine.Apart from bby's post,im going to do my part too!

So whats new? Nothing much,everyday is always filled with lots of love and laughters both from my love,classmates and family.Ive been spending time with sweets,his family,my family a lot these days.

School is fun still,ive gotten A for my problem solving and thats it.Class is always full of jokes,my dirty jokes and of course our racist jokes.2 weeks of holidays is taking so long!! i want school badly ): i miss my class already.sighhhhhhhhh.Rugby was fun too.I didnt attend the previous one due to my own reasons(haha) but fret not,im going training tomorrow! Gotten my boots in size 4(yes you heard it).I wanted the Adidas predator badly,but the smallest size it has was 6 1/2 .Sad or whatttttttt.Its like a giant shoe if i wear it.HAHAHA! This new boots i got has 4 1/2 as the smallest at first.But the sales person was so kind to find the very very smallest of all size and viola! size 4.only a pair,heheheheh.Thank you mom and dad! Imma wear it for training tomorrow! (:

Work on the other hand had been fun too! Baby and I always gotten the afternoon till closing shift on weekends! Which is soooooo cool because after 8pm,the whole shop would be left with baby and me.Closing would always be awesome because sweets and i would try to work hard together to finish as quickly as possible.Heheheh.Apart from that,we loveeeee the bbtea shop next to us and the sushi which is just across.WOO! hehehe,always looking forward to work! After work,my parents would always fetch me while baby's parents would fetch him.Hehehe awesome right? (;

Baby and I are also doing fine.We turned 11 months yesterday!How AWESOME can that be? My bby is such a darling and got me something for your monthsary.Guess what? A BLACK HEADBAND WITH GOLD STUDS AND MICKEY MOUSEEEEEEEEEEE!! omgeeeee im so loving it!

I swear to god it is so big,it covered me when i carry it. -_- hahahaha but nonetheless,thank you so much sweetheart! Youre the best!! <3<3 Happy 11th Monthsary again!

On a side note,here are some random photos all taken since i dont know when.But enjoy!

Bby and i always have nothing to do,that explains the faces in the pictures.

Till then,i'll update soon! Have a great day readers! <3<3

Beautiful

2010-05-28T18:41:00.002+08:00

Dear Ezza,

Im writing this blog post especially for you only sayang. Because i just want to tell you how beautiful you are babygirl.

Look at that pciture above sayang and dont tell me you dont see beauty sayang, cause when i look at it, I see a goddess who has my heart, the same goddess who fills my life with never ending happiness. The same goddess i will shower my love for, for she is the most beautiful person that will ever walk across this earth. Your beauty cannot be compared to a single rose, your love cannot be compared to the constellations of stars, your love cannot be compared to the colours of the rainbow because your beauty is greater that them. Your beauty is impeccable. Infinate. Your beauty is what makes this world revolve. your beauty is like blood in my veins. Your beauty is what brings life meaningful. To steal a glance of you is like stealing a glance of heaven babygirl. You are beautiful, more beautiful than all the girls ive ever seen before, in fact the most beautiful girl in the world. So dont you ever dare to menation anything about being ugly cause your not sayang. Your beautiful. Show that carefully crafted lips baby, smile. Shine me with your beauty.
Stay beautiful, beautiful (: heheeh i love you only babygirl!

From your only love,
Iqbal

2010-05-01T19:55:00.000+08:00

SOMEONE SLAP US PLEASE.HA HA HA HA HA!

2010-05-01T12:09:00.003+08:00

Dearest prince charming Iqbal,

When i look into your eyes,the deep intense feeling i get is indescribable.You made my heart skipped its beat when you appear right infront of me.You make me smile when you waited for me outside class by surprise.You made me grin when you shower me with 'beautiful','amazing' words describing me.You made me giggle when you put your arms ard my waist,because you know i cnnt take it.You made me laugh when you do stupid faces which you knew will entertain me.You made me happy when you never fail to say sweetest of all words.You made me melt not only with your hot look,but your cutest little smile.You made me feel weak in the knees when you plant a kiss right on my forehead.You made me feel awesome when you said all other girls are jerks.You made me feel important even when you are rushing.You made me feel as though im your life,without me you cannot live.

The only time you made me sad? when it was time for us to go home after a long day together.

So havent you realised? You made me a happy girl more than a sad one.Its amazing having these feelings,especially when i get it from my love.Its funny how i dont know what ive been missing till you came into my life.The number of breaths i took is uncomparable to how many times you took my breath away.

My main purpose here was to tell you I Love You very much.Trust me we wont have a happy ending..because true love never ends.

Happy 10th Monthsary!

From your princess,EzzaJay.

humans

2010-04-27T20:02:00.002+08:00

As im sitting here,watching my sweets train for his rugby,i observe people.Yes,humans.I have the tendency to observe them.What might they be thinking about,are they fine with their family,are they facing any problem,what do they want..?

Weird,you can say so.However,Allah never fails to amaze me how humans are.Every single one is different in our own way,everyone is unique.I am unique,you are too.We all have different attitudes,feelings and taste.Im on the soft side,because i get hurt very easily.

Which reminds me of this morning's bus trip to school.I was glad these guys actually gave up the seat for me who was struggling with my laptop and big bag.Pardon me for that.As i sat,i observe humans again.I realised the bus driver is a happy man who does his job well for his family.(well he looks aged,so lets be optimistic and assume he's married alright?) Its undeniable that each morning when you feel sleepy,you tend to also feel fucked up.However the bus driver was different.He did his job with pride,he knows he's the main person to brighten up someone's day early in the morning.Well,just simply giving a warm 'welcome on board' smile.He smiled when i boarded,of course i was feeling happy.Someone bothered to smile at me and brighten up my morning.

So,back to the part where i got a seat,i observed.Say,out of 6 people who boarded the bus (take note that the driver smiles to EVERY SINGLE ONE),but only 2 smiled back.Why? are humans these days unappreciative enough? is a smile too common,it doesnt work on us anymore? is he a stranger and you feel 'oh why the fuck is he smiling at me?!' is that it? ): it breaks my heart,and im sure it broke mr drivers heart too. ):

As the bus goes to the next stop,now i observed mr driver's face.Will he smile again despite getting only a few returned smiles? Will he just give up and not be bothered anymore? Guess what? He didnt give up.Such a strong man isnt he? I would have my heart scarred of something.He smiled and he got the same amount of returned smiles.It totally broke my heart that suddenly i realised i was shaking my head..feeling too disappointed in humans you know?

What amazed me was how mr driver stayed so strong,with the wrinkles at the corner of his eyes,still smiling and grinning and can even smiled at the vehicle next to us when we were at a traffic junction.You see how he endured for the sake of his job and name of his job? I mean im not too sure if you call it ego,but i know men.They have ego for something better than that.Not these kind..

Just think about it,how many humans with the same behaviour as mr driver can you find?

Not many,i tell you.Treasure these kind of people,because an inch of their smile can brighten you up even on your suckiest days.Because it very well made mine. (:

2010-04-25T20:05:00.003+08:00

Here are some DIY-ED stuffs that i did to my shoes.Dont ask me whats up with me and studs,but yeahhhhh.

2010-04-17T22:34:00.008+08:00

Hello everyone!

Its been some time since i last updated my blog.So lets see whats new in our life these days,shall we?

So school has started for us officially.Ive been enjoying lessons and presentations.Overcoming our fears facing the crowd was sure very hard.But now i find it easy to present because afterall the marks goes to us.Hahaha.Homeworks everyday,RJ and quizzes are all part of being a RP student.Eventhough it may sounds tough,but hey,its life in RP.Hahaha.Whats more fun is that finally im in the same school as my sweets! *screams* hahaha,that was sure a plus plus plus point of waking up early and go to school! because sweets will be waiting for me at jurong east to carry my lappy for me! Isnt he such a darling? :P Speaking of which,i was late on the FIRST day,which is absolutely my bad.Hahaha,but the sweet thing was sweets still came to fetch me and we went to school late together.We do anything so long we are together. (:

Anyways,before that of course we had our 3 days full blast orientation! Eventhough it was quite boring at first,but the bonding was there after few days and i made so much friends.It goes the same to sweets too!YAY!They were all very friendly and i was the youngest in the group! Haha,17 and youngest which was heaven because its been 4 years in school that im either the oldest or second oldest.Hahaha.Because you know,im a capricorn.Hahaha.

those were my awesome new friends! <3

apart from that,not forgetting sweets and my well-being! We are doing just fine and handyyyy dandy!Still loving each other as much as we did the first time.(: Been meeting everyday after school,before school and even during school breaks.Whats more fun is that we were online everytime in school without fail!Yay sweets! I love you so much sweetheart!

the part where i cannot take it,hahaha.

Hehehe,so life's been good for me.Hows yours? (:

2010-04-06T20:24:00.006+08:00

I seriously cannot believe school is starting next week.Hmm,i wonder who will be my friends? Hahaha.Orientation will be on Monday till Wednesday and Thursday is alrd school and sweets said that we all have to bring our lappy alrd.I brought my lappy to school the other time with sweets,my hand was cramped alrd.How to carry everyday for 3 years?! LOL.

So anyways,sweets and i headed down to town yesterday for a job interview.I hope i can get cause the pay is $7.50-$8.00 an hour.Good or what? Hahaha.We were a little late than the initial plan because sweets went back to sleep even after i woke him up.-.- The queue was freaking long and im so sorry you couldnt go for Junyuan's rugby semi-finals ): But oh wells,gooo Junyuan!(; And so after the interview we went to grab some lunch at Far East.Sweets and i were so gatal that we decided to eat at Bugis and was already waiting for the train that we suddenly decided to tap out and eat at Orchard instead. Hehehe. Got out fried bars mars! Zeeeelicious but i couldnt finish it soooo sweets ate everything.We headed to Central after that because sweets wanted to go for the longggg escalator again and hahahaha sweets got panicked when i purposely tried to climb over at the 11th floor.hehehe :P As usual we took pictures,nothing much though cause yesterday the camera and I wasnt on good terms..sooo yeah.We also laughed at this ahlian who was posing with her sunglasses and then took it off and it fell into the pond.HAHAHA maluuuuuuuu.

I got so tired that I decided we go home early.Reached home ard 7pm.

2010-04-02T20:24:00.006+08:00

Ive been very lazy to update this blog of mine.Because nothing seems interesting right now.Sweets and I have tried a few jobs but they didnt call back.): selfish mtherfucker.

On Tuesday,the girls and boys decided to meet up and collect our cert in school.Funny thing was sweets got in without the security knowing he wasnt from our school.HE HE HE! We had out lunch and usual laughters with the rest.Sadly sweets was asked to go out of school because he was an outsider.): Waited for Nisa to be done with her food,and met sweets and Rufi back at Lakeside.The rest went to town while sweets and i headed down to JP and decided to hang around.Since ive been crazy abt room designing,we decided to go to the library and look through the books!Man theres so much design to dooo!! I borrowed a few and met mom soon after because she was at JP too!Met mom at Banquet because she was having lunch with sissy.Along the way,bumped into Mr Shaiful who approached me in a sudden way that i got shocked for a moment.HA HA HA.No wonder i suddenly forgot where was POSB when he asked me.-.- Had lunch with mom and went over to fetch my cuzzie and went over her house to visit the cats~ Went home ard 5+pm.Great day with sweets,mom,sissy and cuzzie. :B

Recently sweets and I tried Bata shoe shop over at West Coast Plaza which sweets got because they called him back.It was sad they didnt call me back.And i secretly know why.Hehehe,because i gave her the bitchy look.

Manager:so where are you schooling?
Me:Republic Poly.
Manager:ahhhhh...
Me:at woodlands.
Manager:(in a very fuckin auntie way) yaaaahhh i knowwww.
Me:*stfu i was just saying right!cb* look.

so there,my chances were screwedddddd.thanks to me and my temper.But come to think of it again,cant blame me right?:p who ask her to be bitchy? it was good enough i didnt say that out loud or else i think she might start throwing her Bata shoes on my face and i start throwing heels which will poke her eyeballs and she die.HA HA HA! ahh~ if only its real...

so anyways! Sweets and I tried Quiznos Sub! first ever halal Subway.The food was heavenly! And i never ate that much,but this sandwich was an exception!I wanted to take a photo of it to make my readers drool,but my camera was being a bitch to me sooo yeah.but omg,just talking abt it makes me drool over it alrd!!

after that,we took 51 back to jurong east,which sweets and i laughed so much about because we tried speaking in Kelantan language.Well if you know how,you can sooo imagine how we were doing.I bet the guy infront was irritated with us laughing that he plugged his earpiece after few minutes or so.HA HA HA.but who cares right? so long you have a greaaaaaaaat time with someone you love,the world doesnt matter. :p

we reached jurong east around 9pm+ and straight home! i reached home ard 9.30pm and was contented enough that my day was well spent!:B

On a bright side,here are some extra pictures sweets and i took the other time in school! <3

2010-04-01T00:35:00.003+08:00

sooo..

i got fooled by sweets early in the morning already. -.- how gullible can i be.

have you got fooled yet?

2010-03-21T00:33:00.010+08:00

Hello readers!

Recently bby and i headed down to town for a meet-up and also for our job interview!We went to Plaza Sing first to try out TCC,but damn its a bit too posh plus they sell liquor.Being a religious boyfriend,he told me no.): hahaha we then walked all the way to cineleisure,and yes! the job is so fineeeeeeee.(; *hopping they will call* because we need $$ to buy poly essentials!! ): theres so much to buyyyyy.

We decided to have lunch at Plaza Sing,so again the long walk with much laughters especially when we were trying to cross the big busy road.Hahahaha!Not forgetting when we decided to cross across the road eventhough it was left with 2 seconds.Hahahaha!Good times with sweets.

I decided to eat LJS,somewhere near the Macdonals House and since there wasnt many people around,we whipped out sweets lappy after eating anddddddddddddd took pictures!If you havent had enough laughter with our previous webcam photos,here are some that i sureeee laughed alot.

p/s theres lots of pics with me laughing by the side,bcoz seriously i couldnt take it. :B

so tell us your favourite! :B

Sucking the marrow out of life.

2010-03-20T21:47:00.002+08:00

My body has lots its control over what fills me with the basic necessity to making myelf a complete human being ever since that i fell deeply in love with you. I could be in complete euphoria at certain times and burst into laughters without warning whenever you crack does jokes you always seem to make whenever something looks unsual or wrong or probably sound very dirty, but there are times when we both seem to face a day that doesnt turn our way and the way i react seems to get out of hand. I was in a rage it was almost as if the devil possesed me. Im terribly sorry sayang for hurting you whenever i get angry or upset. I dont mean those things i said whenever those feelings overtook me, all i want you to know is that vdeep down i love you no matter what that youre always on my mind and im never letting go. And thank you sayang for always forgiving me. You have always seen thru me and wisely controlled everything like you always do baby. I will learn from my mistakes dear, I promise you we will prevail baby. I love you sayang, i love you always. Im sorry this isnt much but i wanted to update just for you baby. I LOVE YOU!

2010-03-16T20:00:00.005+08:00

Sweets and I had a wonderful day together yesterday!We spent the whole day together filled with much fun,laughter and not forgetting love. (:

Though we didnt really manage the time,we tried to squeeze in some time to meet sweets friends who were celebrating Yats birthday.We went off around 7.30pm,and had so much
fun playing our 'thumbs' game in the mrt(which i won 3 times in 3 set) HEHEHEHEHE.

Here are some webcam shots we got ystd.

HAHAHAHA! i love you sweets!

ps/it was kind of disturbing,wasnt it? ;p

2010-03-14T17:44:00.005+08:00

Hello readers.

Im sorry for the lack of updates in our blog because it seems we're going out almost everyday.HA HA HA!

Earlier part of the week,sweets and I went over to our school at RP to check out the latest deals for laptops.Little did we know we were mesmerised by the latest Fujitsu design in white plus glitters.Yummy!;p Price was abit to high because it cost $2000. o__o However i bet its every girls dream to have it!(: We then decided to head over to CW to have our lunch first while waiting for sweets daddy to come by.We went to our favourite place as usual,Banquet!Nothing fails to brighten up our day other than local cuisines.

Bought my fried rice while sweets got his carrot cake which i regretted not having it.We ended up trading our food and i finished it all up ;p After a fulfilling meal,we hailed a cab to get back to RP because we were lazy to walk there.(hehehe,trying not to imagine how are we gonna endure 3 years of walking to school)Met sweets dad and sweets got his lappy which was the one we drooled on earlier.Sweets dad sent me home ard 1.30pm.Thank you for the day sweets!

And of course!Long car rides for us means finishing my camera's batteries!!

The next day,i got my own lappy!Thought of getting the same one as sweets,but i cant help to say comparing Acer to Fujitsu,Acer won top notch!Mhmm and im gonna change the skin of my lappy soon!(;

Anyways we've been loving the new webcam we both got.Hehehe heres some screenshot of us! ;p

freakin pissed,

2010-03-08T20:35:00.000+08:00

So,as mentioned above in my title of my post for today,i am Pissed.(yes,with a capital P)The story goes like this,

I walked with Iqbal,and i pinched him.Coincidentally,this woman and her son was infront of us.Her son was wearing a turban.(yes you may guess the race alrd,im NOT mentioning anything).So as i pinched him,the woman approached me.

SLUT:WHY DID YOU PINCH HIM?!
ME:huh? whats wrong with pinching him?
SLUT:YOU THINK YOU SO PRETTY ISSIT?!
ME:....*showing the "yes,go on.." look*
SLUT:YOU ALL HARI RAYA ALL WEAR COLOURFUL YOU THINK PRETTY ISSIT? (lol,this doesnt make sense and comes to show she's and idiot.)
ME:but seriously..? whats wrong with pinching him?
SLUT:YADAYADAYADAYADA
ME:*wasnt listening and iqbal was pulling my hand*

Few seconds..

ME: CHEEEBYE!

Hmm,nice ^^ ~ Call it ego,but no way am i gonna let people do that to me.I swear my hands was about to slap her across the face.Seriously? Us laughing at the turban? HAHAHA,NEXT TIME WEAR MORE COLOURFUL ONE LA CB.HOW ABOUT..TIE DYED? ;p

stupid asshole,good thing i shouted back.I hope you motherf die with your son in some accident or smth.Hmm,maybe a big lorry will do because if its a car,your son wont die because he had a 'helmet' on.Thank you very much.

And i fucking swear im not talking to that particular race anymore.

you tickle my bones

2010-03-03T21:45:00.007+08:00

Im sorry for not updating much here,but it seems that my tagboard is always updated.Hahaha,please update more because it tickles me and shows me who you really are.Dont think i dont know who you are just because you type fake names behind your screen.Im not mentioning names,but hahahaha okay.

Anyway,alot have been going on.Be it family,friends and of course my one and only boyfriend.Been going out with my family on weekends and with boyfriend on weekdays.Plans with friends was cancelled last minute,but please plan more? I miss you girls. ):

Apart from that,i went to Plaza Sing with family on sunday to sign up for mio plan.Dad wanted to get this LG phone which was so cool but the promoter said that LG isnt all that good,which i agree.Ha ha ha.Then we proceeded to Starhub where i finally got my BB! While my mom got herself the OmniaPro which has such an interesting colour.Yummy! We waited for 3 hrs for our number! Imagine that.Hahaha but its okay,it was worth the wait.Spent sometime at Spotlight,and i swear i got crazy the moment i entered it.So much things to do in there! ^^ We went home ard 12am+.Fun day with my family.

On monday,i went out with sweets to Plaza Sing again to check out some store.And we went to Spotlight again,(told ya i love it).Walked around aimlessly and went home early because i was feeling sleepy.Ha ha ha.

On a side note,i went out with baby today to celebrate....my very own belated birthday.In one way or another,it teaches me patience and of course more patience.Ha ha ha.Sweets gave me a beautiful piece of mp4 in hot pink colour!Was so happy the moment sweets gave it to me! awwh.we decided to head down to vivocity to chill around and shop too.Had our late lunch at Secret Recipe after shopping for sweets stuffs.Got tired and we went home.

Thank you for the day sweets! you never fail to make my day!

p/s i finally know how a giraffe sounds! ^^
p/p/s YIGLOOS ftw!~

2010-02-24T08:30:00.002+08:00

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH MY FACEBOOK?!?!?!?!?!?!

):

on a happy note:more jobs rolling in!

but my facebook..well uhm..

yeah..

fuck. ):

2010-02-21T22:39:00.000+08:00

Saturday outing with sweets!

I luv you.

missing her

2010-02-18T04:56:00.004+08:00

Dear Ezza,

I am what I am, ordinary. Very ordinary. I do not have much, I dont have the riches neither do i have the best of looks. I live with both my parents and my 3 brothers in a simple neighborhood in Tampines. I am not a very promising person. Nothing much that awaits me in my future, just simple deals. I am not a very smart or a very wise person, just very adequate, simple minded. I am ashamed of my past, very much. Stupid things I've done that i dont want to try to remember. So simply in other words. I have nothing, nothing at all till 8th June 2009. That day, I have something to look at, something to think and dream all day long about. I have a heart that awaits its giving. And never forget, 30th June 2009, the day i finally beat the odds, the day that I have you.

You are too kind that, my simple ways didnt bother you one bit. You looked at the best of my looks and even helped me enhance myself making me confident to finally let a girl like you touch the skin of my face. Brains didnt matter because you said together when we put our heads in it everything becomes easier.Cause two heads are better than one. And certainly your a new and a never ending chapter of my life. You made me forget and forgive myself of my past and never let it ruin my future. I thank you for that sayang cause you knew how much my past was killing me from the dead. And you loved me so much that you didnt let the slightest of chances for anything to hurt me. Your different from all the girls out there, you're more true to your words than anyone else ive known. You gave every ounce of understanding to every single bit to how we both do things. I want to hold you know in my arms and just look staright in your eyes cause your beauty reaches deep in me and pulled every single string of my heart releasing my soul to touch the stars. Your words and especially your last words guide me thru my life. Youre amazing and your the only one of your kind. No one could match your beauty, wisdom and heart. The dreamgirl that came true. The girl that ill drool over from days to come. The kinda girl that i will lie down on a dirty puddle so you wouldnt step in it. Ill do whatever and whenever for you, just you.

You could easily put a smile on my face, my hair stand when you follow thru my arms, my body relaxed when you hold me tight and my life complete when you kiss me and say you love me. I love every bit of you. The remedy, the cure to all my problems. The missing piece to an incomplete soul. I'll search the ends of the earth to find the very best words that describes ever bit of you. Ill melt to the ground in your incredible aura that never fails to bring me back to a very nostalgic moment on 8th june 2009. I only have these arms to hold you, catch you and pick you up when you fall. I'll be there in every single second. I will never rest for this relationship and i know you would to. Let'd work hard for it baby. Forever. Till death do us part. I love you Nurul Ezza binte Jasni. I really do. Thank you very much for even after almost a year of hating guys you opened your eyes to me and fell for me. Like you said it was fate. (: I love you babygirl. Osh Kosh Begosh. Stay cute hello kitty!

P.S I miss you we have to meet as quickly as possible, i dont mind even if its only for a minute, ill go over as fast as possible to kiss the lips that i'm missing.

Love,

Iqbal.

feeling it.

2010-02-13T22:50:00.002+08:00

The pressure, it hurts. This is the exact point of time where i just feel like curling up in bed with the misty cold wind of the air con blowing in my face. In the comfort of my bed and the safety in my room. Thats where not even reality can reach in and swipe your soul away. My room filled with painted pictures of giraffes or automobiles on the walls. Old batman figures that i used to play with stay scattered on the floor, untouched. My childhood was one of my greatest moments of my life. No pressure, no one expecting you to play to your best and if you dont they just take it all away. I love my childhood. It makes me feel young again. Endless presents that awaits its opening. You just dont care in whatever you do, the good things or the bad, it doenst matter and it doesnt even bother anyone but now older, wiser (so called) responsibility of yourself steps in. Your pride and honour becomes more important than life itself. Face is important. Tomorrow, one of the biggest matches in my life. This is where i prove myself at the highest level. I gotta be good tomorrow or else im practically screwed. The pressure, i just dont want embarrass ezza, or my family. Everything has to be perfect. Its hard when your parents demand the best from you when you know its hard. I just dont wanna fail. The pressure is killing me, what if i kept thinking too much in the game im gonna get crushed by some big arabian fellas. Im representing my country and myself. Im not gonna let this pressure that we all face bring me down. Im going in that match with my head held up my hands clenched and ready for the match. Play to my best. I am what i am. And i have to thank my babygirl for helping me pull thru. Im gonna step in that field, with fate and pride restored. Im gonna do this, no pressure.

I guess it has to be true behind every man is a wonderful woman. And im glad my baby is there for me. She picked me up and made me stronger. I dont need anything else all i need is her and im superman next ( hehe) When i have her i dont need to remind myself of the good times in my childhood cause Ezza's the wonderful precious lil possesion that makes your life better than ever. Makes you smile like you never before. I love you Ezza and thank you for pulling thru this together. You truly are amazing.

Osh kosh begosh babygirl.

2010-02-13T19:29:00.000+08:00

Ive heard from sweets that some avid readers here are complaining that our blog's dead..

mmhmm,okay then i shall update a proper one.

Our Expo work over at Hall 5 was awesome!Although it was tiring,but i enjoyed every single minute of it simply because my sweets was working with me!Not forgetting all the friends that we've made.From Fox,to Knickers and French Connection.Finally ive learnt how to hang clothes properly...which ive applied it to my own wardrobe and hell yeah,it look so fine now.Not only that,but since sweets was the only guy under Sino London,he had to do all the carrying and pushing.Not forgetting the times when we had the chance to be in the store together,all the random hugs and kisses we gave to each other.

Its funny how i kept complaining how tiring my job was,but now i miss expo sale so much!Just love the connections i have all around me.Also the number of cute babies that never fail to make me smile and i'll run to sweets just to show him how cute the baby is.Awwh,guud times.

And of course,not forgetting how i endured 1 whole day of working while my sweets wasnt. ): It really made a huge difference when he's just now around.But thanks to Elna,Syam and Nisa who accompanied me throughout the day filled with laughters and lame jokes.My heart was pretty much jumping around the moment i looked up and sweets came,right after training!! I swear i gave the tightest hug ever.I bet it was the same when i had my off day while sweets had to work.I came down just so i could accompany him during his lunch.

Also,not forgetting to sweet's parents who sent me home a couple of times after a whole day of work!Couldnt resist but to just sleep on sweet's shoulder all the time!Thank you sweety for your shoulder,and thank you to mommy and daddy for sending me home all the way to the other side of singapore. (:

Andddd,the shopping experience sweets and i gotten! Thank you for the first ever birthday present you got me sweets! I love you!! and all other stuffs we shopped together.Thank you also for the food you always brought from home for me.You just know ive got a big appetite at that point of time. :p

Thank you everyone for the experience ive gotten.
And thank you sweets for accompanying me for this job.i luv you.

Currently,im rotting at home with nothing much to do.Am very reluctant to go out because its adult fare and its expensive. |: also,i cant wait to get the next pay so i can shop with sweets till i drop! hahahaha.Maybe imma take up the Fox job at Vivo,so long i work im a happy bunny.<:

p/s blackberry,i can smell you...
p/p/s Valentines Day movie was awesome!
p/p/p/s hi sweets,you rock! \m/ ;p

pillar of strength

2010-02-12T13:45:00.001+08:00

To my dearest Iqbal,
you dont know how much my love has grown for you throughout the whole journey of our relationship.Never met a man like you,so pure,so faithful and never fail to brighten up my day even when im feeling so low like never before.Your existence is enough to guide me through my life,and to tell me and show me whats wrong and whats right.Having you in this world is the greatest gift He had ever given me.For i know you are the one,and im lucky enough to have met The One at an early stage of my life.We may have argued,fought that brought so much tears to both of our eyes,but deep inside we know we're meant for each other and nothing's gonna stop us,ever.The foughts have brought us much closer than we expected,and now our love is stronger than before.Im willing to just do anything,so long i have you safely in my arms.I can sacrifice whatever thats important in my life right now,because i know nothing's more important,except you.

We've sacrificed and endured each other for more than half a year,and Ive never heard any complains from either of us.Because we know we're doing this for The One.Im doing it for you,my love.And your doing it,for me.Im glad of all the things youve gone through for me,all the shits we endured together as one.We break through hundreds of barriers that were blocking our love.And see where it leads us to now? We're still together as one,strong as ever.Thank you for always being there for me whenever i need you sweets.

After all these times,youre still the one i love.

you make my emotions go weee.....!

2010-02-11T00:15:00.002+08:00

Hey babygirl, since it's been long since either one of us updated the blog, i wanna take this opportunity to tell you what has been going on in my life ever since you're in it.

080609, a date never to be forgotten. The day when our notion of fair odds clash just in the nick of time. The day i realised i was in love. Then on, i knew i was never going to let this feeling pass by me cause i know this thing going between you and me is something special. Everlasting. Refreshing. You mean the world to me now that youre mine dear. My bestfriend and ultimately my lover. Finding you is the greatest find in this world full of wrong where you are the only thing that is right. You set my heart in motion and let it reach to edge of my emotions dear. Everything you say or do is like a shooting star that brings every wish come true. A girl so faithful so true so pure, i know my heart is safe with you. You will be my first and you will be my last. Forever. Lets make our dreams come true babygirl just like we planned. You, you're love keeps me up all the time hold me close whenever im without you. Its stated its written on the walls of our hearts. We've gone far together and theres more to explore, locations, dreams, wishes that awaits our footprints. Be happy always dear and never feel down, instead look up to the sky and hear the angels sing as you walk on by. One thing ive learnt from this amazing relationship with the most amazing person is that love should be accompanied with trust, will, faith. Love is an escape to freedom and not to pain. Love is letting one's soul reach feel the corner of her heart that no other feeling can. Love in the most simplest yet the most exact words is you. Love is you. Love is nothing without you. Smile my dearest ezza. Show that cute little smile of yours with the lil dimple on your right cheek ( ehehehe one dimple only) God really did spent a little more time on you, completing you in perfection. Beauty, poise, courage, wisdom, and filled with love, especially love.

I love you Nurul Ezza Binte Jasni. Osh Kosh Begosh.

From Iqbal.

2010-02-03T11:51:00.000+08:00

I dreamt i saw this woman,passing by me.She had nipple stickers on,but her blouse was drooping down..

thus,exposing the breast.

it was the leopard nipple stickers we always talk about!!

hahahahahahahahaha!

thus,i woke up laughing..

bestfriend,lover.

2010-01-31T14:21:00.000+08:00

And when i met you,my heart sighed.The sigh radiated from the hole in my chest,from that place that had never seen light,from the place that had taken all of my joy and given me only loneliness."There you are," it said,"you dont know how long ive been waiting for someone like you."

and there you were,Iqbal.

Happy Belated 7th Monthsary and still counting!

i luv you sweets.

engagement,engaging.

2010-01-24T16:28:00.000+08:00

Impromtu plan on friday.Went shopping with Syahida at ard 6pm.Nothing much,but we crave for CottonOn.Went to IMM's one,but there wasnt anything much,so just bought a cropped top and Syahida got her harem pants.Met bby there,and since we havent had enough,we went to JP's CottonOn where i got my tank tops while Syahida didnt get anything.Walked ard for a bit,and got home almost 10pm.Thank you for sending me home sweets!

Yesterday,my cousin got engaged.Congrats! Arrived there ard 4+pm and goshhh my cousin looked so pretty! Makes me wanna get engaged too. :p hehehehe! Its okay,10 years down the road...hahaha.I didnt take much photos with other cousins,but heres a few.

Someone to look over.

2010-01-22T00:11:00.003+08:00

Dearest Ezza,

Life before you was simply a dread. Life was slow, too-steady, boring. There and then on, love was never an option neither was love in my mind at all. Love was just another thing, where its played by two for affection. And affection didnt mean anything to me. Forgive me, i'm not the kind who knows much about our religion, and i knew it was wrong, God was going to punish me for my sins however for some reason, maybe a streak of light among the clouds in the sky, suddenly you, came out of the blue right before my eyes, smiling ever so sweetly and the rest of the story of how we fell in love was a magical experience. God is kind.

When i fall in love, it will be forever. If not i will never fall in love again. When i give my heart, it will be completely because my love is real. Emotion, passion in our eyes. I'll never give up this feeling we have for anything else because, lightning never strikes twice in the same spot so im going to make this love last forever babe. For once in my life, i have someone who needs me, who needs my love and for once im unafraid where life leads me cause i have someone i needed so long and i know you'll make me strong. For once, i can touch what my heart used to dream of and i have someone who wont desert and i know i wont be alone anymore. Now there you are babe, we promised to each other love that lasts for eternity and we're gonna work towards it sayang.

You know i'll do anything for you, i'll cut my legs off as long as i get to touch you, I'll cut my hands off as long as i can see you, i'll take my own life away as long as i know i'll die for you. If you want a boxer, i'll step in the ring for you, If you want a teacher, Ill tell you all that i know, If you want a doctor i'l examine every inch of you (he he) . If you wana play a game with me, we'll play hide and seek and ill hide, or if you prefer to take me for a ride (he he) cause you know you can babe. Ill do whatever,whenever. Period.

The only way i could make myself at ease when were far apart, ill always remember that you'll always be in my heart. Sometimes i'd like to look back at our pictures or pictures of places we've been before together and my heart will embrace all day through babe. I'll always imagine us walking down in a lovely summer's day holding hands picking out the names of our going to be child (which we are still looking for one) or tell each other jokes till we reach to the point of letting our bladder go. Everywhere we go together laughter follows, dusts of love will sprinkle above our heads. When we have our moonlight kisses, It alwys seems to cool the warmth of the earth from the sun. You're the cure to every illness, question to every answer.

I love you Ezza, i really do, we're gonna work hard and nobody is gonna be in our way to stop us from falling for each other more, cause we're fated babe. I love you, dont let me go babe. Osh kosh begosh!, stay cute hello kitty! MEOW! CARPE DIEM!

p/s forgive me dear for all the things ive donw wrong. Its time for me to realise and ammend my mistakes thank you dear for pulling through with me (:

with so much love,

Iqbal

17th birthday!

2010-01-21T15:13:00.007+08:00

Howdy!

So,yesterday was the official day i turned 17!! Old or whud?! hahahaha.

Special thanks to all those who wished me.In return,i'll write down all the names to show mutual respect <;

iqbal.my family.ejs,syahida.diniy.nisa.aidah.syak.shahiran.fazil.azhari.zhee kong.jeremywong.heyra rahmat.shak.nigel.fairuz.yasser.nedpy.ika.chiayi.desmond.haqeem
.hakim.shabirah.nadiah.fasya.zaiba.minqi.farhana.
shahril.fitri.asraff.hfatin.iffah.shakirah.nazreen.elna.ramsharan.hazwani.jessi.aphicha.
bella.woonguek.nashrul.erian.kayfun.amalina.rudds.sahil.priya.terence.haiqal.

.siti jueta daud.charlene.amirul.atiqah.hamka.amarlina.amikowong.muhaiminah.famidha.
boonkit.daphne.vanessa.widya.syaff.chenghui.rufi.kishore.

and special thanks also to my dad who sang the birthday song for me at Swensens,and the people who clapped at Swensons.Thank you <;

ps/ and happy 48th anniversary to my grandparents which falls on my birthday too ! <;
pps/and to my cousin who got admitted to the hosp on my birthday,get well soooon! <3

Birthday girl!!

2010-01-20T11:08:00.002+08:00

Dearie!

HAHAHA HAPPAPYE BIRTHDAY SWEETHEART! HAHAHAHA may all your dreams and wishes come true dearest. HAHAH I hope you enjoyed your last day of being sixteen because now that your 17 HAHAA must take care of your babyboy here lehh HAHAAH. Awhh the day my dearie was born lehh. SO COOL! AHHAHA wait a lil while okay for the bbq and the party, its gona be after we work okay sayang? Dont worry ill make it a blast, trust me!

Awh sayang, today means so much to me because, it was the day YOU were borned! I mean could hve you ever thought if it was another day, it wouldnt be the same, things would be different and i might not have even met you in the first place. So im glad everything fell in place and things are the way things are. Thank you dear, from what i believe, i think they should name it EZZA's BIRTHDAY! and make it a public Holiday, where everyone is parading on the streets, filled with colourful balloons, hello kitty floats filled in the sky and bare*- bottom pants eheheh.

Today is one of my most important date that i will and never forget. Its more important than my own birthday, cause without you, i wouldnt be what i am today. So you mean alot to me dear, really alot. Even though the sea tides against us maybe strong i know we'll carry on and move on cause if there's somebody calling me on, you're the one. Baby, take my hand, and ill take you somewhere far from here like i promised, we'll share love quotes to each other under the star-filled sky. The moon, our witness when our presence thickens the walls of our hearts with each other in our hearts. Im trapped in your love babe, and god knows im enjoying it. So baby, dont frown cause the clouds will gather, dont cry cause it might rain, just smile cause it'll clear the sky and laugh with me and the sun will shine. Babe you mean alot to me and i'll do whatever to make your day.

Come sayang, enjoy your birthday cause it only lasts for a day. The day you must remember cause now your officially older than me -.- HAHA kidding haha. Love you sayang, i really do, thank you for being there all the time dearest. Stay cute! Bye hello kitty! osh kosh begosh!

Love,

Iqbal

love of a lifetime

2010-01-19T16:08:00.003+08:00

"I know I’m not a lot of things that you’ve gone for in the past. I know, but I would never leave you. I would never hurt you, and I would never stop loving you." -Greys Anatomy

goes out to you sweets <:

with so much love,
EzzaJay.

WIthout you i am nothing

2010-01-19T12:34:00.005+08:00

Dear Ezza,

Hey sayang, a few more days to you're 17th BIRTHDAY! Someone is gonna be older ehhh. AHAHHA remember the car parody?

(iqbal goes out with friends, he then is going out with his girlfriend

iqbal's friend: hey bal how you gonna meet ezza from here?

Iqbal: ermmm uh ermmm errr. She gonna pick me up uh

(ezza's car zooms in,)

Ezza: chuckles...

HAHAHAHAHAHA KAYY SOME OF YOU READERS MIGHT NOT GET IT AHAH LAME I KNOW AHAHA but this is among me and ezza ehhhh. AHAHA

GOSH babe heheheh, but dearie i really miss you badly nowwwww. I miss your voice the most. Because its like alullaby to my resting heart my dear. Your voice very melodious to play the strings of people's heart. I miss our midnight calls babe. I miss the scent whenever we meet. i missed the stare whenever you look into my eyes. Your touch that rests my soul. Gosh dearie there so many things i miss about you. I need you badly dear.

Without you, its another sleepless night for me. Breathing was like sin. Food has no value. Water has no purpose. Tears and thoughts of you are the only medicine i can find amidst me. i feel so lost where the direction disappers infront of me babe. I hope everything there will subside cause i need you badly. Gosh dearie, your a kind soul that deserves the best. So im gona be there for youjust like a jackbox ready to spring out. I know you need me like you said before. Ill be there after my rugby games okay sayang? Ill be there for you trust me. No more tears kay sayang. no more tears cheer up God loves you and he will rest the situation for you sayang.

I love you very much okay. Very much. Im here always here, look at our pictures if it helps. Reminisce back to our funny moments if you missed me. Cause im there fresh in your heart singing our favourite songs together( usually out of tune) but im there dear. always there. im never gonna let you go and i know you wont ever let me go babe. I love you Ezza. i really do. Ill be online tonight at nine kay. We'll talk about our picnic kay babe ? I love you! OSH KOSH BEGOSHH! Im sorry this isnt much but i dont wanna make it too sad, because i want you to be happy kay SO SMILEEE!~ HEHEHEHE CAN YOU SMELL THAT * hand movements*

HAPPAYYE BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE XOXOXOXXO!

p/s stay cute hello kitty.... meow!

Love,

Iqbal

a needle in a haystack

2010-01-18T12:59:00.002+08:00

Dear Ezza,

Don't you remember the time when you tell me, that if you find that certain someone that you love, you'll do something about it? I'm ever so delightful that we both did something about it and look at us now, we're happy as hell. You bring this strange rather ticklish feeling in me that i've never felt before, and as time moves on and as our hearts become closer as one, then i realize what happiness felt like. Yes happiness, I can find it nowhere else except in you. Rugby maybe on one of those things i turn to in the past but now i turn to this beautiful, wonderful girl who completes me or other people might say, the missing piece to the puzzle or the one who fills the holes of my heart.

Baby, i still remember the first time when i hold your hand, gosh i was so careful with it. I didn't wanna squeeze your hand to tight and tell you that i didn't know how to treat a girl (actually i really didn't know how to treat a girl but you thought me) or hold your hand to loosely and tell you that i don't need you. I just wanted to hold your hand in mine and tell you that I'm in love with you i want nothing else but you, where i suddenly realize that your hands perfectly fits this crooked structured hand of mine which there and then i know you were the one.

And don't you remember our first kiss? Blissful as it is, when he first had it i bet the angels must be singing, flowers must be blooming, the clouds are clearing and the sun shinning as brightly as ever. I can describe to you that first kiss from my eyes dear. Up on an escalator, looking into your eyes, our heads not too far, just an inch away. Your hands, wrapped around my neck, my hands wrapped around your waists. The sweet smell of your perfume brought me closer, if it was true at that moment i can here my lips singing as they knew what was to happen. Eyes closed now, aiming was pure instinct, my neck muscles brought me 75 % closer and you finished the last 25 %, there our lips resting on each other, so tender, so sweet. Our lips caressing each others like theres no tomorrow . Our heads move from side to side. It lasted for lifetime and as soon as it ended, it felt like we born again. And then you said ' you broke my first kiss, iqbal' and smiled. I was ecstatic, my heart was pumping like gun, my face blushed out of shyness, ears red, my legs jelly-fied and my shoulder rested. God, that was our first kiss and we're never gona forget it. (:

Now it seems like we cannot live without each other, we need each other. Your presence brings satisfaction to my soul, you control my breathing, my appetite, my actions. And whenever we had to go for the night i was gona miss you badly, Everything i do, is and will always be for you. Some of my friends ask why i was so willing to go to the other side of singapore to pick you up and sent you back home again and i said, it never troubled me, not even one bit. It was all sincere and i dont mind doing it. because i believe love has no extent, love can be stretched from length to length width to width and il do whatever for love, your love.

Ezza babe, i wana bring you somewhere we both can be alone together somewhere in a paradise far away from here, from all the trouble that awaits us here like a lioness bying its time to pounce on its prey. We can make castles, i'll be king and you'll be my queen and we'll rule this little world of ours with love. Or ill be knight saddled on a horse making his journey half way around the globe to save you, my beautiful princess who was kept away in a tower, then i'll bring you back home where we will soon be wed. Gosh come baby, hold my hand let me take you there. We'll be happy together babe, trust me babe.

Ezza, im never gonna stop loving you more and i know you love more as time goes on by too. I love you very much, and i'll do whatever to describe my love for you because its true. Out of millions, billions and gazabagehabillions ouf people out there, we picked each other. Thank you for being faithful babe. Thank you evry much sayang. I love you and im never gona let you go.

p/s stay cute hello kitty!

From love,
Iqbal

when the heavens are crying

2010-01-17T14:36:00.002+08:00

Dearest Ezza,

Dont feel sad. Sway your feelings away. Dry those tears that flows down your cheek because the angels are with you. Its a beautiful day today, the sun ever so bright, the clouds playing hide-and-go-seek among the blue skies, so dont cry baby. The heavens would cry too if you were to cry. Cmon babe lilltle children playing out in this sunny sunday afternoon lets let them be kay. God loves you very much and im sure he will make your day. So cmon my dear, cheer up, your beloved friends are there for you. Show me a lil smile babe. i wana see that cute lil smile of yours kay.

Cheer up sayang, cause we're here for you :)

Love, iqbal HEHEHEHEEH

i want the whole thangg

2010-01-17T04:02:00.006+08:00

Dear Ezza,

7 months have gone by and what an amazing experience we have gone through together. Like gosh, could have you imagined, two complete strangers from two different sides of the country meeting at the most randomness of places and at the same time. But it doesnt stop there, these two complete strangers then fall in love and go through alot together (if you get what i mean hehe) no matter what the situation may be, and still going strong to last for eternity. Gosh what a story to tell our kids babe. I mean it has become a mission, an objective or a very extremely super duper important thing to do to love you everyday. I mean, we've said it ourselves, we can never ever live without each other.

I sat down in the living room look at our pictures in my phone and and when i look at this one picture it tells me what your love means to me, it tells me the reason why i love you and when i move from picture to picture, it all falls into place that the reason of me being here on this earth is to love this girl before me who has been giving all her life and for once in her life she deserves something in return. She has been putting herself in somebody's elses shoes to understand to care And god bless her soul for caring the wildlife that she adores all her life. So this is my calling, the day i met her is my calling.Show tender-loving care for her. Kiss her when shes down, Hold her when shes lonely, Hug her when she needs me.

Your love is like a meteor shooting through the dull blue skies that leaves an impact which can never be erased from the face of the earth even over a billion years.You, your love so hot, so sensational, so sultry, so wonderful that it becomes a clear example of god's finest creation. Your beauty is ever so breathtaking that the moon and the stars dont even matter anymore. Your beauty brings anything else that is described as beautiful become simple and bare. Your beauty, proves to everyone that god spent a little more time on you, to carve every curve, to shape the smallest of angles, give you hair thats smooth as silk, lips as tender and as sweet as a candy coated pillow, eyes as sharp as an eagle, skin as soft and as enlightening as a bird's feather and of course curves that drives a man to the extent of his sexual desires. Gosh dearie, really and im not kidding thats really how beautiful you are. This maybe embarrassing but whenever we're not going out and everything, we'll stay home and i'll always pretend to be kissing the lips that im missing and once i got caught by my mum when she saw me doing it haha. But its true your beauty is beyond comparison to anything else out there.

However beauty must be paired with character and certainly you are the only one out there that has both dear. Ive never met a girl so understanding so passionate so faithful to her lover. A girl like you is capable of getting any guy she wants but you, you're different you dont think that way, you know whats right, you love one and only one, and i know that happens to be me. This lonely, pessimistic soul that you've chosen but since ive been with you, you made me a better person cause your love changes me drastically like the wind. What can i say, she even cares for the smallest of things, i have never heard anyone ever in my life who feels so sorry over a small insect that just got killed, she even took sometime to feel for that lil insect. Seriously i find it very cute but that tells me something about her, she cares for every single thing no matter how big or how small the matter is. She is an angel hidden among us and i want to tell every single one of you to realise what an amazing person nurul ezza binte jasni is. She is the kind of person that we need more in this world cause she brings happiness to our faces and especially mine.

Dear, gosh forgive me for what ive done wrong and forgive me if my words here dont fall nicely but read it through again cause my love is in there. Just lingering among the words ive written. It may not make sense but once again see it through, Ezza dearie i love you veryy much, i really do, and im never letting you go neither am i going to give you up because i know you love me and you will never let me go too. So im surrendering my life to you, love you in the way you want to be loved. Cause i have devoted myself to you. Be your man, who will be there for you. Once again dearie. i love you veryy much. be strong, just realise what an impact you have made on the people around you.

p/s thank you for giving me an inspiration to write a book about a girl just like you, its called cement and glue hahahahahahahh

From your love,
Iqbal

2010-01-16T23:07:00.002+08:00

Hi! Finally i have the excitement to update my page..
now before it fades away,i shall blabber stuffs that will at least make my page updated...

for a moment..that didnt make sense,does it?

oh well,my days have been fine.results,were okay.not up to my expectation but whatever happens,happens for a reason.ive chosen my courses wisely and i hope i get into my first choice which is over at temasek poly.as far as it may seem,but thats where my future lies...jeng jeng jeng! Ha ha.

Out to RP on wednesday with sweets because he wanted to apply for JPSAE.Explored the school for a bit and went for course counselling.Which was awesome because it made me understand it further.Had our lunch at CP,and then visited Hamdan over at Aussino.Checked out pay and wowza! cant wait for our pay day. ;p Headed home after that with a longgggg bus ride. <:

Out on thursday with sweets,syahida,nisa,rufi and taufiq to town.Nisa went for the job interview at expo and she got it! Which means we will all be working together later on the 26th. Yay! Had lunch at Cineleisure and walked all the way to Istana Park,hanged around and home after that. <:

Out on friday with family to buy tix for Anita Serawak and Ismail Haron's concert for my parents,and then off to Expo hall for John Little sale.I can get crazy over there i tell you.Everything was cheap!! Lingeries,bags,shoes,clothes.Goshhhhhhhhhh,yummy! Spent like no one's business.Only 2 bags,and it was ard 300 dollars.Hahaha,thank you daddy!! Went home after that feeling shagged.

Out today again to Expo! Couldnt get enough of the sale,really.Sent my parents off for their concert,and my mom left me with about a hundred to spend,and they went off.I got crazy again.Hehehehe.Everything total up to almost hundred,and i went off to meet sweets.Had impromtu plan,and met up with syahida for dinner.Ate and home around 10+pm.Feeling shagged again.

Thats all for now,till next time!

potong steam

2010-01-15T15:16:00.000+08:00

I dont know why i always feel so excited to update my blog..

but when i come to the page..i dont anymore.
I have no idea what to update,
because my minds blank
and theres nothing much
and im lazy
and

well you get the drift..

2010-01-04T06:53:00.002+08:00

Its raining now.
Its first day of back to school.
If only..im going to school,
we'll all meet in the classroom,bcoz the parade square is wet.

But since its the first day,
maybe we'll meet in the hall.
And i'll be some gundu,always mixing up my seat with roshinie.

oh why~

i miss school badly.
I miss every single one.
>:

Bye,im off to work.
.
.
.
>:

2010-01-03T18:52:00.000+08:00

Will not be on the lappy much this week because we have work! <: Aussino,Causeway Point.Hahaha just a week work,and we're done! Did someone smell kachings? Bcoz i can smell it <: Hehehehe,oh and happy schooling kiddos! <:

On a different note,here's some of the zombie pictures!

Done!

2010-01-03T17:00:00.001+08:00

Friday's outing:
-BK
-pool
-spotlight
-starbucks
-homed ard 10+pm

hello 2010!

2009-12-31T17:32:00.000+08:00

In 2009..:

-played in class
-slept in class
-smsed in class
-talked non stop in class
-caught for short skirt
-caught for multiple earrings
-caught for coloured hair
-copied during test (multiple times)
-failed a test terribly
-aced a test <:
-skipped classes
-escaped remedials and ran around the school to escape from teachers
-hid behind pillars to escape another remedial <: guud timez
-didnt attend school for a week
-absent myself from school the most
-got infected with h1n1
-did o level's LC in a quarantined room
-went to school by bus only once
-slept in car on the way and was lazy to go out of car for school
-played one hell of a badminton during PE
-and floorball too (our grp always winning) hehehe
-cheated during NAPHA test
-walked all the way for X-country
-threw paper at a teacher
-tripped a teacher but he didnt fall =.=
-scolded by a teacher for calling his name
-scolded i dont know this boy because he was acting weird
-played computer when we were suppose to do some essay (every weds or was it tues?)
-gave a bitchy face,i fucking hate you expression to an examiner
-rushed my dnt folio to the maxxxx (last minute work.tsk!)
-will always remember 8 june
-will remember my friend Farez (hehe)
-found Iqbal after months of hating guyz (i luv u <: )
-cramped my head for olevels
-listened to my mommy and aced my malay o's
-enjoyed freedom after o's
-got a job
-quitted the job
-got offered for acting
-earned kachingssss $$
-got another job,starting next week <:
-fed a cat who looked hungry
-saved an ant from drowning
-pushed my cat till he fell (hehe)
-cried when i saw a freezing cat\
-cried when i saw how rats struggle to save their babies on okto
-cried on a malay drama show
-cried when someone else cried =.=
-cried when it was bad hair day
-my face got covered during photo taking day (thanks again)
-have alot of ppl asking if im mixed of arab or eurasian (aiseyman!)
-got dark becoz of tanned
-did something to my hair
-went out almost everyday
-got sick of town
-got sick of singapore
-got a very nice surprise for 16th birthday
-got 1 white hair which i freaked out
-didnt sleep just so i could prove myself strong =.=
-woke up and went to school with swollen eyes twice
-had side fringe experience <:
-now back to bangz
-my hair grew and grew long
-went out and went home lateeeeeeee
-worst year of my life
-completed assesments ive never done
-had tuitions and never ending of studies
-did alot of things i also cannot remember much
-oh,and met someone i'll never forget for the rest of my life <:

What about you?

When youre away

2009-12-31T16:06:00.002+08:00

helloooooooo, hahahah dearieeee its really boring without you here and i miss you badly really. Gosh come back home quick and gimme a call kay. I cannot tahan lar without you hahaha. I love you syang and oh yeah btw i remebered last night you told me bout you wanting to help the stray cats right? i looked up in the net and i think you would be interested. its the cat welfare society http://www.catwelfare.org/ hahahaha and if youre gona do it then im gona do it with you no matter the issues i have with cats ahahh as long as im doing it with you babe.

LOVE OF MY LIFE

2009-12-31T02:19:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 6th MONTHSARY NURUL EZZA BINTE JASNI!!

Ezza, thank you. Thank you for giving me an opportunity of a life time to be in love with you, a wonderful person who has been blessed with such powering beauty and a to-die-for character. Ezza already 6 months and we've built wonders, i know you and me are gonna last forever babe, i can already see what we will do together to the world out there. We'll rule the world babe. The sun will shine brightly when we want it to, the clouds will gather and fall as rain where you and me could kiss in the pouring rain and the moon and the stars will brighten up our night when we take a stroll in the park with our hands together binded by love my dear. Nothing would be possible without you dear because everytime you smile the heavens will open up, and everytime you blink, river gates opened up to let water flow down from the mountains to give life. You are like a goddess Ezza. You are the answer to my prayers dearie. You have been there for me with that fine sense of humour of yours that will cheer me up when im feeling low down. When you come to me, you take my troubles and grief away my dear. You give me something to believe in. Love. I can hear your heartbeat from miles away. Whenever i think of you i feel whole. The emptiness in me is filled with that tender loving care of yours sayang. You make me feel mellow down to my soul. Ezza i just want you to realise what an impact you have done to me and im very sure your friends have felt that caring impact of yours too so dear you are very important to everyone and especially to me. I love you Ezza. I can never live without you. Happy 6th monthsary sayang and pardon me if i dont layout my feelings as smoothly. I love you babygirl. Till death do us apart. :)

p/s heeheh come see who tickle who first.

love of my life

2009-12-30T15:02:00.000+08:00

As i sit here,stoning eversince just now,something strucked me..

HAPPY 6TH MONTHSARY IQBAL BIN ABDUL RAHIM!!

Like i always said,time flies when youre enjoying every single moment of it with someone you truly love from the bottom of your heart.I never had imagine myself being with someone so wonderful,and completes my life.But you came out of nowhere,saving me from the world.You gave me the courage to give love a second chance.I did,and never regret.You are amazing in every single way,and i cant thank you enough for showing me what love truly is.I finally understood,love is not all about having someone to care for you,love you but with no meaning.Love means,care,passion and of course being faithful to one another.I like how you always care for me,and checking me up all the time.I get pissed off at times,but then i realise you do love me.<: I love our piggyback rides,how you struggle to bring me up,and how we always tumble and roll and laugh it off especially at the bridge.Haha,because we dont care what people think,that makes us..us.I love it how you always offer to carry my bag,and i declined but later give in because my backbone was actually hurting.Hehehe.I also love how we always criticise each other and in the end,appreciate one another because afterall we are together as one.I love our little games in long mrt rides that never fail to make me laugh like hyena.I also love how we both are very sharp with the eyes and can spot every single mistake in public.How you always renact what we saw.And me?...laughing till i almost pee by the side.You never fail to make my day everytime we have our dates.Im just very lucky to be given this opportunity to have you as my boyfriend,and till death do us apart.I love you,Iqbal.

p/s oh,and i also love to tickle your stomach.HOHO!

2009-12-30T12:01:00.000+08:00

Sunday was awesome because baby and i were invited to a cast party along with the other casts! Shooting for Outliars has ended,and watching the "preview" makes baby and i laughed.Hahaha,it wasnt really as what i thought.I dont look like me in the zombie scenes! Hmm,but maybe that makes the make-up artist a good one. :pI'll try to post some pictures of me and baby being a zombie.We were given the zombie couple title because we wore the same colour shirt!And we ran together into the scene.Hehehe,good times.

The party was held at our director's house,located somewhere around Kembangan.Hehehe,we kind of got lost for a bit,so we hailed a cab and got to the place.Thanks Andrew and Syafiq for fetching us!The house was gigantic and we were facinated for a bit.Haha.The food was great,baby and i found a nice spot in their garden to eat.It was such a nice spot that we both imagined us living in there. :p hehehe,cheeky.Snapped pictures with all the cast,and baby and i headed home around 10.Thank you for sending me home! I luv you <: Now im missing every single one of them ): till we have another production! (:

And here are some pictures of our 2nd day of zombie shooting!

2009-12-25T21:55:00.002+08:00

Went out yesterday to celebrate Syak's belated 16th birthday.Initial plan was to have a picnic at sentosa,but since most couldnt make it,we make it smaller a little.

Went out of the house ard 12.16pm,and since it was drizzling,i took a cab to lakeside.The cab took so long,i was freezing in the rain and i was pissed off when this girl who just came and stood infront of me and hailed a cab and got it.-.- i swear my middle finger was out.Finally i got mine,but the driver took me to Chinese Garden instead,and i was like nooooo uncle its lakeside and he went,aiyahhhh okok.Reached Lakeside late and im sooo sorry baby i was late.

Was told that the Aussino job interview at Shaw was cancelled and postponed to next monday. -.- So baby and i had nothing to do,and we went to 313@somerset and then Central which we find it boring.Walked all the way to Cineleisure and had our BK.Walked to Wisma,looked around and went Ion.And then made our way to Orchard to meet the rest.

We then walked all the way to PS to have Swensens as Syaks birthday treat.After eating,we headed to The Cathay and hanged around.Thought of watching Alvin and the Chipmunk's new movie at 9.05pm,but Syak was in favour of hanging around Clark Quay.So we walked,and chilled at the Mac till about 9+pm.The rest went home around 10,while nisa,rufi,iqbal and myself walked to Esplanade.Splitted with them and we went home around 11pm.Reached home around midnight and couldnt really remember what i did.Only to wake up this morning on the sofa,with my clothes not changed.Ha ha.

2009-12-25T12:48:00.000+08:00

Dearest ass,have you had enough? Are you satisfied now that you have fought all your way through? Are you happy that whatever you did makes you feel like a big shot?

After days of not being on my laptop,i came back to see allllllll your tags.I shall say i did laughed after reading it.I was amused by how contradicting,how your ego shot up so high you didnt wanna lose,how you phrased your words,how amazing you can be.

But dont be proud just yet,because behind all that,i also feel that youre..a fucking bitch.

Because,you said you didnt insult me.Wow,hold on there missy.Then i guess YOU should check back the tag that YOU said "i dont know why would iqbal love you". There,i NAMED it for you already.Whats that all about? Im not that stupid not to know what that means.What pb said was true.And you dont think i am stupid enough not to grab your words. Ha,i guess YOU should be the one checking back.Also,i wrote a whole essay about you and your fucking loser parents is simply because youre such a pathetic loser that i cant help but to share with the whole world! ^^

And then the part where you said nuffnang.Gosh,good joke there.Im just wondering was it your eyes or was it your stupidity that was telling you i have nuffnang? Come on babe,open up your eyes wide and look around.Scroll up and down my page,see if theres any nuffnang ads stupid.And you even said such a big girl like me would take it so seriously.Come on dear,lets recall what we said okay? I just said,"indeed love is blind.thank you ass.oh i mean S." THATS ALL.you said your part,i replied.End of story.But YOU,let me remind again,YOU were the one who replied BACK saying "wow ass? you are so lame." Hmm,i wonder who was the one who took it seriously now? Cmon,calling you an ass hurts you? Why did YOU took it seriously in the first place.Now YOU tell me why.

And just so you know,its good that you find the tags funny and you enjoy coming back to check whats new for you.Im sure there always something eveytime you visit.So,do come by always.Till next time! (:

2009-12-22T21:45:00.000+08:00

Ive been very patient all these while with you S or i shall rather call you ass.You came to my blog not to introduce yourself or anything,but you criticised with all your fucking words.Now tell me ass,whats your fucking problem? Didnt your fucking mom and dad teach you not to be rude and invade others own way of living? Well,i assume not.So lets say,fuck you mom and dad of ass.You fucking fail to raise one hell of a fucking ass now.Whats more giving a fucking stupid name called S? suckaaaa.

Secondly,have i even done any wrong towards you? If i have,then well can you grow some balls or if your a girl,grow some fucking vagina or boobs and confront me.Im not even an inch scared of you,because i know you must be some poser trying to act like some big fuck.I dont mind meeting you and hearing your fucking problem shitz you have with me.

Thirdly,if youre jealous of anything about my life,then just say it.You dont have to go around criticising and giving some fucking stupid comments and feeling all so proud of it.You aint no big shot im telling you.Didnt your parents taught you that? Opps,im sorry.You were raised by a piece of a motherfucking parents who failed to do their part.): im sorry i reminded you that.

Lastly,if none of the above concerns you..then i guess you just have nothing better to do except to mock others.What can i say,its the hols now.If youre some fucking younger kiddo than me,then let me remind you that school is starting soon,so you better get you ass off and study hard because no one else can guide you since your parents are some assholes,remember? But if youre older,then im so sorry you have such a small brain,perhaps like your dick or tits. (:

However,if you are someone i KNOW,and maybe im someone you really know,then you can fucking approach me all you want.I'll be waiting asshole.

2009-12-21T18:03:00.000+08:00

Before it slipped off my mind again,

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY TO MY BITCH,SYAKILA SUNARYO!
Finally 16 eh eh. ^^
I fucking love you,whore. (:

On an unrelated note,i was browsing through my pictures and i saw this.

WHAT THE FUCK~ me wanna hug the mummy pandaaaaaaa!!!!

2009-12-21T17:34:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was awesome because baby and I headed down to the flea market over at St James! We were bored to death,and decided to meet up after 2 days of not meeting.Met him over at Outram,(sorry again i was late) and trained to Harbourfront.Went to draw out some cash before proceeding.

Shopped around,and there were too many people till i got a bit pissed off.The weather was hot,and the surrounding in St James was dark,i didnt even know what i was browsing.Haha.Spent around an hour and we were done.Filled out stomach with LJS,walked around a little bit and we went home.

Got home and changed,and out again with my family.Had supper over at changi village,and homed around 12.Called baby,till about 45mins and off i went.

So anyway,there are some overdued pictures that i planned to put up here but which i procastinated...and finally here are the shooting pictures! :D

i was the only girl classmate,which was weird. -.-

sorry if the lighting's a bit different,its bcoz of the different locations we went to.Tomorrow and wednesday,shooting scenes for zombie! (:

2009-12-19T19:13:00.000+08:00

Today..

i did something i regretted so much.

I pushed my cat and he fell. ): becoz i was angry,and stomping on stairs and my cat happened to sit on the stairs,so i pushed him aside.He fell,but didnt hurt himself.

Few seconds later,i saw tearz in his eyez.

I swear my heart soften for a moment,and i came to hug him.And he hugged me back.

Im sorry Ricky,i promise i wont push you again. ):
I love you.

And i love you too Iqbal.

2009-12-18T19:03:00.002+08:00

What The Fuckkkk!

life

2009-12-16T10:53:00.003+08:00

My holidays have been great so far.Gaining experience as a waitress and also a hostess,welcoming guests.Not forgetting carrying the tray on only one hand,and walking around risking the fall.However,i realised its taking all of mine and Baby's time to spend together,so we quit.

And then the rest of the days were better,because we smelt freedom.Right bby? Thats where we started to roam around Singapore and also explore our inner interest in acting.Which was also a great experience for us both because we do it together.

I stayed home at most twice a week,the rest of the day? Out with my baby or out to visit my granny in the hospital.Not forgetting my frequent trips to my hospital because im being monitered too.Well,maybe you know the reason yourself.

And then i also read a book,about family,relationships and most importantly life.It teaches us how people can assume in life,and how the other party can misunderstand and everything just goes wrong.How the husband was too caught up with work,he neglected his family,and the wife..well a woman being a woman,slept with her neighbour who happens to be a delicious young boy.(; How the author wrote and solved the problem,how the wife suffered silently and also how they both work it out and now a happy family.

Then now i know,theres many things in life.I have a long way to go ahead,laid out already.But i dont know what it is,i just have to go with the flow.And i have to learn to let go the life ive planned ahead,and follow the plan that is waiting for me.

2009-12-15T21:51:00.002+08:00

A scene over at KFC earlier today..

*Iqbal eating a hot whipped potato,then puts it away*
Iqbal: I'll eat this later,its too hot.
Me:You dont like hot stuffs?
Iqbal:*shakes head*
Me: Then why do you like me?

HA HA HA!

then Iqbal went,"thats the corny-est line ever!".

still,i love him. (:

almost giving up

2009-12-15T12:39:00.004+08:00

because

1)it sucks knowing your condition isnt getting any better.
2)you feel very very uncomfortable.
3)its bent to the right,and you feel funny.
4)it hurts 24/7.
5)you feel...different from the rest.

contributing factor to the pain:my sunburnt.wtf!

when i look at you

2009-12-15T02:27:00.004+08:00

Here again, i breathe through a rather nostalgic night that brought me back to the time i first saw you. Where your beauty catches the attention of a helpless soul and how he struggles to catch his breath after gazing upon a breathtaking smile that will sweep you off your feet, yeah thats how beautiful you are. I swear, when i first saw you, it was as if i was experiencing god's will, because nobody could move the mountains like you do when you simply flick your hair. Ezza, we may not say much that day but gosh i made a promise to myself that i was going to dream of you. Dream of your voice, dream of your touch and dream of your smile once more. Now that i have you my dear, my life seems to be brighter because every morning when i wake up it feels like ive never seen the sky before, makes me reborn every morning knowing that im in love with the most amazing person who also loves me deeply too. I'll give up the rest of my life just to touch you dear as it will be pure ecstasy. Love becomes so strong and meaningful because that love comes from you and no one else. I want to vanish inside your kiss where that moment i taste the sweet lips of a girl who was specially made by god to live through the best of life, so on the day you said yes to me my dear i already made a promise that i will be the best for you, to love you every second and be there for you in every moment. My dear, trust me no one else out there in this world of billions or before our time who is so matured, so beautiful, so graceful, so wise and oh so perfect like you. Ezza, storm clouds may gather and the storms may collide in a day but i will stay with you in the rain or out in the blazing sun because your presence is the closest to heaven that i'll ever be able to reach my dear. You certainly are an angel Ezza. An angel of love. How can i forget that you posess such beautiful, sultry eyes that when you gracefully blink you turn famines to feasts. Just listen to my heart dear,hear it sing, its telling me to give you everything. So now my dear, lets go through life together with our hands together binded by love forever dear cause im never letting go and im sure you wont too babe. I love you Ezza and i just wanted to tell you how amazing you are.

By:Iqbal

What you made me realise.

2009-12-13T23:13:00.005+08:00

Truth is, im not the smartest neither am i the more good-looking ones out there, which in other words makes me as simple as nothing, but here you are, before me staring into each other's eyes, then i know i must not waste this opportunity to taste the sweetest feeling of love that every man desires to experience. And only your love, only yours, made me realise the purpose of me living in this world is to love you. That is my purpose of living before i die. I maybe nothing before, but you're expectations and you're wisdom make me what i am now. Its almost as similar when im only just a chocolate coating that's hollow inside wheres theres no purpose of me to support for but you are the creamy filling that i contain that gives the tongue a never ending taste of bliss and happiness. Dear, you make me feel like I am a falling star who has finally found his place next to another in a lovely constellation, where we will sparkle in the heavens forever. You dont know that my love for you is like cupid's arrow that puntures through my heart and never getting it out again. Your love will remain in my heart till eternity. Every part of my life must revolve around you its not because you forced me to but its because i want it to. Cause i know i'll be safe with you no matter what we will go through together, up the highest mountain or swim across the deepest ocean. Dear believe me, i will prevail to be a better person to be the man you expect me to be for you. I will find myself and love you in the way you deserved to be loved. Cause someone like you only comes once in a life time, and im pretty sure no one else is as special as you because god spent a little more time on you dear. Ezza i love you, and too all her friends you must be very lucky to have known and befriended with the most amazing person in the world and i cannot imagine how lucky i am to be with the most beautiful girl in this entire world right now. Certainly the girl of my dreams. Ezza baby, once again i love you and trust me we will prevail. There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved by you (:

by: iqbal

2009-12-06T14:21:00.002+08:00

Its obvious that we're far apart right now,and your not beside me.Im sorry if i reacted like that just now,but it could just be another bad day start for me.I should have just let it go,and be okay.But it took me some time to do so.

You mean very very much to be Iqbal.and i want you to know im always here for you.as your lover,mate or bestfriend.though we're apart,trust me.i swear,i can feel your heartbeat.

With so much love,with cherries and rainbow sprinkles on top.

2009-12-04T14:28:00.001+08:00

"Forgiving someone does not mean that you lose,while your partner wins."
"Its about how much you treasure your relationship,than your ego."

Mhhmm mmmm.

2009-12-02T22:02:00.000+08:00

“I never really saw how lost I actually was before I was found. I wouldn’t have known if you hadn’t come around.”

Random,but i love you Iqbal!

2009-12-02T20:33:00.004+08:00

Today wasnt much of a fun because for the first time after 97845987343842 days of seeing my baby every single day,i didnt today.So which means my day was sucky,but not as much.(:

My mom woke me up with a tight slap on my butt(hohoho) because she wants me to follow her to see my grandma in the hosp.I was one hell of a lazy pig and it took half an hour for me to sit on my bed.I sat,and went to sleep again and my mom had to drag me off from the bed.Ha ha ha.Come on,who wakes up at 9.30am in the morning when you can sleep till noon,you tell me?

Anyhoos,i woke up and got changed and played around with my kitties and by the time it was 11 plus.Flagged a cab,and headed down to TTSH.My grandma's doing great.She was munching on watermelons when i came.^^ How cute.Ha ha ha.Her leg is doing great though it looks gore because you can see the flesh.Ha ha ha,yup i swear.And then the doctor came and opened it up and you can see more of the flesh with the veins.And the doctor took something out and mom was asking what was it and i explained correctly and the doctor called me Smartgirl.HO HO HO! Baby calls me smart babe.HA HA HA.

And then i talked and laughed with my nenek till about 2 plus,and went down to the Foodcourt to eat with mommy and sissy.Then we head down to Orchard to get some ink for my printer.Went to Borders,but they werent selling any.): Sadzzz,but i became happy because mommy got me books.I love books! ^^ Okay so anyway,since we were thirsty,we headed down to Starbucks to chill and have some drinks.Then,walked all the way to Ngee Ann City and got our printer ink.Took the mrt,and daddy fetched us at JE.

Tiring but happy outing with mommy and sissy after so long of not hanging out with them.

Currently chatting with my Iqbally,and he's one hell of a fun boyfriend.I love you! ^^

meet me halfway

2009-11-30T23:02:00.000+08:00

Work from morning till night was part of the plan.
Meeting Diniy after work was part of the plan.
Reaching home ard midnight was also part of the plan.

But hey,none of it happened.

Qutting job was not part of my plan today.(i didnt even see it coming)
Eating mutton chop with Iqbal's daddy was not part of the plan either.
Going to KK Hospital was not part of the plan.
Meeting Iqbal's parents was also not part of the plan.
Getting a ride home by his parents was also not part of the plan.

But it happened,with you(Iqbal) by my side.I treasure whatever that had happened today because i did it with you.I dont mind doing anything,so long im with you.Till now,i couldnt explain these things i feel for you.Because you,taught me the true meaning of love.Happy 5th monthsary dearest.

With hugs and kisses with cherries on top,EzzaJay.

p/s just so you know,to die in your arms,is such a heavenly way to die. (:

you feel me?

2009-11-26T11:50:00.000+08:00

So,if you have been wondering why this blog has been dead,its because...im working.Ha ha ha.Work from 11am till 11pm,which you may think its tiring cause its F&B,but its not.I enjoyed every single moment because the people there are all nice.(: (except for the part where my hands were going to break after carrying zillions of tray on one hand) he he.

I was supposed to have an off day last tuesday,but just as i was happily rolling in bed,my manager called and told me to come to work because they need me.Sadzzz,but hey,money rolling in aye? (: So anyway,work today at 5pm-11pm,but i have some trainings at 330,so i MUST be there by 300.Work work work! (:

On a sad note,my family wont be celebrating Hari Raya Haji because first,im working all zee way.Second,my grandma got admitted again because somethings wrong with her operated leg and she had to do another operation.So,the rest of the family would be sitting at home.Lonely Hari Raya.Ha ha,awwh.

Ok,gotta get my butts up,and cut some slack before heading to work.Bye!

a song for you

2009-11-21T15:00:00.000+08:00

I've been so many places in my life and time
I've sung a lot of songs I've made some bad rhyme
I've acted out my love in stages
With ten thousand people watching
But we're alone now and I'm singing this song for you

I know your image of me is what I hope to be
I've treated you unkindly but darlin' can't you see
There's no one more important to me
Darlin' can't you please see through me
Cause we're alone now and I'm singing this song for you

You taught me precious secrets of the truth witholding nothing
You came out in front and I was hiding
But now I'm so much better and if my words don't come together
Listen to the melody cause my love is in there hiding

I love you in a place where there's no space or time
I love you for in my life you are a friend of mine
And when my life is over
Remember when we were together
We were alone and I was singing this song for you

You taught me precious secrets of the truth witholding nothing
You came out in front and I was hiding
But now I'm so much better and if my words don't come together
Listen to the melody cause my love is in there hiding

I love you in a place where there's no space or time
And when my life is over
Remember when we were together
We were alone and I was singing this song for you

2009-11-16T17:44:00.000+08:00

Loves you more and more each day.

can you smell that?

2009-11-15T12:44:00.002+08:00

Im all alone right now..

Well no.Except for the part im alone upstairs now.My granny is downstairs..sleeping i assume? My pussycat is beside me and she's dozing off.Anyway,im all better now.The paranormal activity doesnt seem to be bothering me anymore.Well,not much.Been listening to the mp3 till i fall asleep,which works.

On a different note,im in need of cash and really need to work!Im rotting at home with nothing to do,except to sleep and eat.I was so bored,and so i came up with a plan to sell bags or so with my mommy whom agrees to it.Not very sure of it,but maybe?Depends on my lazy factor.Mmhmm,

Red Camp is in 2 days and i havent search for white tshirts.Shit,im so not ready for it.

Anyhoo,*looks below*,i shed a tear when i read the poem.Thank you sayang,and i love love you!<3

Sunday morning

2009-11-15T10:13:00.005+08:00

Sunday morning,
here I am
with nothing but a picture
of you
in my hand.
Now i stare into that picture
knowing that you are far apart
but there you are,
deep in my heart.
Now i stare into that picture
knowing that you have robbed me
but there you are
with my heart held close to yours.
Now i stare into that picture
knowing that i wont be able to have you now with me
but there you are, whispering the melodies of love into my ear,
no matter the distance.
Now i stare into that picture,
knowing that i miss you my love,
Your humble presence overwhelms my surrounding
making me 'filled' not hollow;
Im here laying around
in this sunday morning
filling my thoughts with detailed descriptions
of you, my love..
Oh, i must tell you that,
I love you my dear.

By Iqbal to his dearest Ezza

2009-11-13T12:38:00.003+08:00

Its raining..and im falling asleep.

I cant fucking sleep yesterday night because the Paranormal Activity scenes were on my mind and then my ears was all alert to every single sound.Then there were scratches and then it was my pussycat.Then,i realised my wardrobe wasnt close tight and i imagined big monsters crawling out then climb onto bed and eat me.So i read some prayers loudly and just as i was falling deeeeeep asleep,the hairdryer switched on and i turned..it was my brother using it.He's going to school.

time check by then:7am.

hahahaha suspense.NEVER watch that show.

edited/ holy shit! the door opened by itself!

mmmmhhmmm,oh it was my mommy.
shit,i think the show made me a scaredy cat now.

2009-11-11T19:46:00.004+08:00

Feels good to be back doesnt it?

So,i was telling Diniy that i was figuring out if i still remember how to update,and ta-dah! What do you know? Hahaha.

Anyhoo,today marks the end of our O levels and only God knows how loud i screamed in my heart at the very last second before the clock ticks 3pm.Apart from my very irritating hair,well my bangs(only God knows what happened to my hair)and my very sad sad bandaged leg,everything was fine.The invigilator was laughing at my entry proof paper which uhm..i can say was quite distorted and splatters of yellow highlighter all around.Untidy part of me,i suppose? Ohwell,it was our last paper so..who cares?

A little trip to JP after the paper with my girls was as usual fun.Whats more with the Tile game that we played and sharing of money for our food.Speaking of which i havent paid back my share.Hehehe.After lunch,we headed down to the library because 1)im returning my books 2)i need to find my ezlink card which i THINK i must have placed it somewhere. -.- The librarian said they didnt see my ezlink and i had to report it as lost.Tsk,where ever is my ezlink? I bet the founder must be laughing at my face well...because you should know how i look like in my ezlink.Hahaha.Mommy was nagging because she said adult fare is expensive and she's very sure i would be going out alot and she said she doesnt wanna supply my transport fare.): Sadz.Ohwells,what can i do?

Right now,im doing nothing much on computer because 1)my boyfriend's having his rugby training and im all alone 2)i really dont know what to do.Hahaha bummer.

I hope tomorrow would be a better day.*grins*

when all else fails,

2009-10-11T19:13:00.007+08:00

Ive come to realise that i was too busy that i actually neglected my baby.(nono,i mean my blog).The place where ive always poured my feelings out all the while.What was i thinking? *shakes head* Anyhow,ive come to the rescue!Blogger,here i come to update and fill you! Ha ha ha?

Mmhmm,ignore the above.Its just some stress remedy ive figured out.You are lame when you are stress.Or is it just me? Hahahaha.So,lets update you readers with whats happening in my life right now.

Im still in love with my boyfriend,no one can deny that fact.And im very sure he's deeply in love with me still(according to the previous post).Hahahaha.We're doing great,still strong and will be stronger than ever.*grins* love you!

Schools great,prelims are over and shitty results are coming out.L1R4 is totally devastating and i think i should rlly get another slap so i would wake up.Studies are driving me crazy and i dont have any idea how i will fair for Os.This is really driving me madddddd.Night studies have started and mommy or daddy will be sending and fetching me to and fro because well its simple.They dont trust me.How shitty-er can that be? Lifes rlly shitty shit shit.

Anyhooo,on a brighter note,i went out with my boyfriend's friend the other time and we had lots of fun.Though i didnt manage to hang out for long,but the time spent with my boyfriend was absolutely amazing.

Carpe diem

2009-09-30T23:58:00.008+08:00

YAHOIHOI PEOPLE! HEHE YI-ker-bal-er here! Since LOVERGIRLLL couldnt be on the comp as muchhhh, i shall be taking this opportunity to EXPRESSSSSSSSSS MYSELFFF. HAPPY 3rd MONTHSERRRYYY! Dearrrie, thank you for being there with me, together we'll work against gravity, against the odds, against chance and against luck. We'll share evrything from the usual things like how we brushed our teeth in the morning to our most deepest feelings that's buried deep inthe marrow of life. WE HIDE NOTHING. PURE ENTERTAINMENT, UNCENSORED! (from the rugby thingy hahah kk lame) We'll create our fun, we'll create our laughter. We'll do our hand gestures whenever we pass by breadtalk or play our lil catching game in the train or even read the oldest edition of TENNAGE in the train together ahahah bottomline is we'll Do everything together babyyy. We'll keep our promises and im very sure that you and i know that this love is for a lifetime. For now we maybe an examination apart but those once-or-twice-a-week-meetings and those super long late night calls definately holds us together or even brought us even closer (get what i mean ehehehh). Trust. I know i have your trust and i know you have my trust, we're gonna go far, till the sun falls down. AFTER the big 'o's, its PARTAYYYYYE! HAHAHA MUST FIND AN OXYGEN BAR!MUST! THEN SENTOSAAA THENNN LOTSAAA STUUUUFS! PLUS THE secret-night-thingy ive planned up for you babygirlll! HAHA but for now lets studayye hard and push all those nuisances aside and forget them because BABY ITS FACT that we're truly madly deeply in love with each other sayanggg. I love you and trust me ill never let you go, never. No matter the distance, you know im just a call away. Tell me you need me and ill come running to you. Osh kosh begosh sayangg. I love you veryyyy muchhhhh. Carpe diem.

p.s hahahaha our monthseryy cards are damnnn cute ahahha and i owe you those flowerrrs ahahaha andandand cannnottt the wait our jalan rayeeeerrr conflem funnnnn

Flom ee-bah with lofe
(:

2009-09-28T23:28:00.000+08:00

Im still alive,hahaha.

Let me start off with whats important:
1)Raya was fine.I wore baju kurung for the FIRST time.
2)Not much money collected because ppl thought i work already. -.- (sense the sarcasm?)
3)I didnt go out for raya on one day because i need to study chemistry for prelims.
4)Which i didnt (hehehe)
5)Therefore i screw my chem paper,tyvm.

PICTURES:

the heart will go on,

2009-09-11T23:57:00.000+08:00

If you have been wondering whether im still alive..stop wondering cause apparently i am. *grins*

I must say life have been pretty normal actually.Ups and downs...part and parcel of life dont you think so?
Have also learnt not to be too nice to people.I gotta be stern and selfish at times.I cant give in all the time,no i cant.

Moving along,fasting month have been great.I have not been fasting much this year.And raya is in few days time and nope,im not least excited about it.Maybe cause prelims will be in few days after that? And then come the major O's which i am very much nervous of now.

Study for whole of Saturday with tuition later in the afternoon.And study again the whole night.
Eyebrow treading with mommy on Sunday.Finally a resting day before Monday.

monday blues~monday blues~ ):

every moment spent,

2009-09-01T11:56:00.000+08:00

Teacher's day celebration in school was fine.I forgot my ez-link,i forgot my memory card for camera,i forgot the mp3.Pissed off but nonetheless,the phototakings with different people made my day.(: The weather was hot,i was perspiring.So overall,i became pissed off again.Went home to take whatever i forgot,and Dad sent me to Lakeside again.Thanks Daddy!

Maths mock exam next monday! Time to brush up on everythinggggg!

A POEM JUST FOR YOU

2009-08-30T10:26:00.004+08:00

for her

Tell me you love me
tel me you need me
and ill be there for you
just beside of you

I have to tell you
you smile very sweetly
like flowers blooming in the morning
like the rainbows after a rainy day

i have to tell you
i love you
like the sun chases for his moon
like a man whose missing a silver spoon

i have to tell you
im always nervous when i meet you
my blood rushes through my veins
my heart pumping for more

Let me tell you
i love you
ive fallen too deep for you
without you my heart stops and i can return no more

Let me tell you
if i could choose my dying place
or the time i breathe my last breath
i choose to die in your arms

Let me tell you now
i really love you

from,
iqbally (:

poem made with love,

2009-08-30T10:20:00.001+08:00

i love the way you look at me,
with your eyes wide and hazel brown
i love the way you kiss me,
cause it makes me nervous deep down.

i love the way you showed concern,
cause i know you really care.
i love the way you said the 3 words,
cause i know youre always there.

i love the way your body looks,
cause i go crazy over your lines,
i love the way we are right now,
thanks for being mine. -EzzaJay

HAPPY 2ND MONTHSARY IQBALLYYYY!

FIRST TIMERRR

2009-08-30T08:38:00.002+08:00

HARLO peopleee. Iqbally here, aahahah welll to let you guys know im currently sharing this blog with Ezza causssee firstly, we decided that we're gonna share everything togetherr ahaha! And secondly, i wanted to have a taste of having a blog ( i know its lame excuse ) . I find it super duper ultra coooolio. AHHAHA this is like my first time ( sort of) soooo gotta cut me some slackk yeah ahahaa, trying my best though aahahh. See ezza i updated our blog! ahaha but to avoid being a penyebuk (i think thats how its spelt) to you guys i wont update much ahaha cause this blog right fulllly belongs to Ezzzaaaaaa. HAHA yeahhh soo i gotta run! ANYWHOOOOS ncie to see you guys! (:

btw, HAPPAYYY SECOND MONTHVERSARYYYY EZZA DEARIEEE!

you were my eyes when i couldnt see,you were my voice when i couldnt speak

2009-08-16T11:38:00.000+08:00

Way advanced birthday celebration for Diniy.
HAPPY 16TH IN ADVANCE!
OH,HAPPY BELATED 16TH SYAHIDAAAA!

each other in the heart,never drifting apart

2009-08-15T00:52:00.000+08:00

God listened to my prayer..
and so DNT submission date is extended for an extra week.yayz~

my eyebags,are growing into eyeluggage!
HA HA,kay lamez.

wont be updating much,
PRELIMS PRELIMS PRELIMS.
and uh,
die die die?

---

please give me strength to go through everything.Please?

your love is king

2009-08-13T00:46:00.001+08:00

Yesterday night at TJ Macs.
Home ard 10pm.

And to Haini,here's the picture you wanted! (:

2009-08-12T22:44:00.000+08:00

I made my mom and dad disappointed. ):

what.was.i.thinking?

when everything pours out

2009-08-09T14:32:00.000+08:00

Ive been thinking..can i go through this?Can i survive in the next 70+ days before my big examination?Can i promise my parents i'll do well? Can i make my parents happy? I dont want to promise them.I just cant because deep down i know that most probably i cant do it.I dont want to renegue. ):

Sometimes it just makes you think too hard,your head hurts. ): Or it'll make you cry to sleep.Everythings so hard on me now,i dont know what to do/think. ):

Tell me how to juggle everything.Family,studies,friendship,relationship alll at one time when no one's helping you.Its you,and only you to depend on.It feels as though youre stranded in the middle of a desert.No one there to shelter you from the hot scorching sun,no one to guide your way through and find out how the hell do you get out of that place,no one to tell you to peservere,to believe that you can do it.No one,but you.

Maybe its just me who's too dependent?Or is it the people around me?

Ahh shit,another question.No i dont want to think about it.I just want to go through life smoothly,without any thing thats going to ruin it.But hey,who am i kidding? Pfft,this is life.There's ups and downs man.

Maybe im too reticent? Am i? Does my reticence aroused curiousity in the people around me? What the heck,people wont care.No,im not telling you poeple to care.You dont have to cause it's troublesome.You heard me,and i dont want to trouble people.Nah uh,not at all.

I must admit im not much of a smart ass in school or something.Failing is like daily thing to me and i know deep down im a failure.On rare occasions,i might not be a failure.I might pass,not that well but so long a pass and maybe almost reaching it.But then again,the happiness wont last cause i know the next time round i would not have this feeling again.Its a fail,you failure!Sigh.Main point is,i dont want to reiterate.I want to show people i can do it.I really can if i try really hard,just for once.Push myself to the limits..

But what if deeeeeeeeep down i know i cant? ): Ive known myself for almost 16 years.I know myself better than anyone else.Its like there's some fairies or smth living inside me and telling me what i can and cannot do.And please pardon me if im wrong,i heard them saying i cant do it.

I swear i can literally die just looking at the amount of assessments,revison worksheet,tuition homeworks,school homeworks piling up.With the constant hard-pushing words by my mommy.I may seem fine infront of her when she always tells me to work hard,to peservere,to sacrifice..she just knows me too well.

But she doesnt know every single time she does it,she'll make me cry.Silent cry in my silent room,silent assessment books on my table.Silent breathing of me trying to calm down.Silent tears.Im so sorry mommy for not listening to you the other time and threw a tantrum and stomped up the stairs and locked myself in my room and not talking to you the whole day.Im so sorry.

Its just the amount of stress thats bothering me,until i could not control my emotions and temper.I cried my eyes out..and i must say a big thank you Iqbal for being there for me.For telling me that everything is alright and its normal for a mom to nag/shout.And i should apologise to her the very next day.Which i did,and couldnt have done it without him since you know how huge me ego is.You beg to differ?

Trust me,i felt much much better after that.

And then when it all builds up,something will destroy and everything will come down crashing again.And sometimes your girlfriends are the one who cheer you up.Because theyre the ones who spend most of the time with and every single lame joke they made..can really cheer me up.I love you girls for that<3 I really do.

It all come to a conclusion.Studies,friendship,relationship,family.Its part of life,you can do nothing about it.Its all up to you on how youre doing to juggle everything.A test to determine how strong you are.

Im up for it,are you?

mundane

2009-08-08T23:49:00.000+08:00

NDP'09 pictures.Nothing much to say.
Pretty mundane blog now,isnt it?

"If you think he's the one,are you gonna do something about it,or are you gonna let that person just past by your life without you doing anything?"